Things I Say Through Writing

I Can Say

2011-12-15T09:29:00.002+08:00

As I open my eyes
Everyday in my bed
A smile, yes a smile
In my lips without words

I close my eyes
For one last time
Before I start my day
Only "Thank you" is what I can say

Deadly

2006-08-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

To love you

For me is everything.

To forget you

For me is impossible.

To be with you

For me is heavenly.

To be far from you

For me is deadly.

One Special Person

2006-08-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

I kept on thinking
What the mystery of life brings
As each day passes by
We meet different people
But there's always this someone
You are destined to find
Someone you never expected to come
Someone that'll make a change in your life
Then just one day you'll wake-up
Findind yourself longing
Longing for even a single moment
Just to be with that person
The one special person
Whom you can't live without
The one special person
Whom you would want to love
The one special person
You would want to care for
The only thing missing
Is that one special person

You Are Special

2006-08-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

I must admit that the friendship we shared
Was the best one I would ever cherish
It was the one reason I kept holding-on to life
It was the one thing that gave me strength
I never wanted it to end like this
I feel so sad for giving you pain
Strange as it may seem
I never stopped longing for you
Longing for someone who was never mine
Loving without asking for anything in return
Just wanna put a smile on your lips
Hoping to make you feel that you are special

All My Life

2006-08-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

In everyday that God has made

I wake up thinking about you

My life seems incomplete

knowing that you're far away from me

Always trying to find a way

For me to spend time with you

Time that I hope

would be memorable as years pass by

I wish to share my life with you

I wish that I may show you how much I care

In this life of mine I never wanted anything else

But to love you and make you feel you're special

I appreciate every little thing you do

Like when I receive messages from you

Even just your smile

Gives me strength and makes my world go round

Let me feel your love

The love I've been dreaming all my life

My True Love

2006-08-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

There are a lot of reasons
In this world that gives me hope
One would be my family
Another would be that someone special
An important person in my life
Who gave me a glimpse of heaven
That without her my life would be incomplete
A life without happiness and meaning
I never wanted anything more
Than to be with that one special person
To share my life with
And show her how much I care
To love her with all my heart
Forever she'll be my true love

All Over Agian

2006-08-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

I could write a thousand poems
Just to show you how much I love you
I could fill a book with all the things I wanna say
To let you know how important you are to me
I could do so many things to show you I'm in pain
For you to have pity on me
I could send you messages all day and all night
To let you know I'm really sorry
I can make words rhyme
To let it sound with harmony
But you know what, the only thing I know I can't do
Is to make you love me all over again

Not Me

2006-08-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

In my dreams
You are mine
Mine to hold
Mine to kiss
Mine to love
For the rest of my life
In my dreams
No one can love you but me
But in reality
You love someone and that's not me

Ang Mahal Mo Ay Siya

2006-08-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

Hanggang kailan kita mamahalin?
'Yan ang tanong ng puso't damdamin
Simula nung tayo ay magmahalan
Mundo ko ay simula nang mabuo
Hindi na lang isang tunog
Hindi na lang isang kulay
Mundo ko ay sumaya
Wala nang lungkot at luha
Maaari bang mahalin kita
Kahit na alam ko na ang mahal mo ay siya?

Mahal Pa Rin Kita

2006-08-28T22:14:00.001+08:00

Minsan ika'y naaalala pa rin
Sa mga gabing malungkot at mahangin
Naaalala ang mga oras na ika'y kasama
Nasa piling ko at yakap-yakap ka
Kayhirap limutin ang mga magagandang alaala
Kayhirap tanggapin na ika'y wala na sa aking piling
Minsan may luha pa ring pumapatak
Kasabay ng mata ang puso sa pag-iyak
Gustong isigaw ang nadaramang sakit
Upang sa iyo'y maipahiwatig
Na sa simula ng mawala ka
Inaamin ko...Mahal pa rin kita

I Love You

2006-08-28T22:14:00.000+08:00

If today would be my last
What could I do
The only question I'd ask
Would you say that you love me too?
I'd always hold your hand
Where ever we may go
I'll show you I'm happy
'Coz that's what you made me
I'd hug you so tight
I'd make you close your eyes
I'll whisper in your ear
My final words..."I Love You"

Still Love You

2006-08-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

There was so much pain
The very moment you left
But even so
I never stopped thinking of you
Every night before I close my eyes
You're still the one I want beside me
My life has never felt so empty
Now that you are gone
I need to move on, I need to forget you
Until when can I still love you?

Kasinungalingan Lamang

2006-08-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

Akala ko'y ikaw na nga
Sa habambuhay ay aking kasama
Akala ko'y tayong dalawa
Ang magmamahalan magpakailanman
Hanggang ngayo'y di pa rin maintindihan
Kung bakit ako'y iyong sinaktan
Nagtataka kung ang iyong mga sinabi noon
Ay merong bang katotohanan o kasinungalingan lamang

Let You Go

2006-07-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry for all the pain
I'm sorry if I wasn't able to trust you again
If only I could have
If only I was brave enough
It would have been us still
We could have been a happy couple once more
But then, every regret comes in the end
It's one regret I'll be having all my life
A regret of all my mistakes
I wish life is much simpler but it's not
Life is full of painful experiences, that's a fact
And I hope this one's just a lesson to be learned
I now know not to be a coward
I now know I should be brave to let you go

Give You Up

2006-07-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

Never I thought that things would turn out this way
Never did I thought that it would be this painful
That it would hurt me this much seeing you with him
That you are happy, while holding his hands
I thought I could bear the feeling of losing you
I thought I could live a day without you
I was wrong thinking I could
But there's no more turning back, I know
'Coz from the moment I lost you
Pain has never left my heart
Pain has been in every breath I take
Hoping that I'll never breathe again
Hoping for a miracle that all these would go away
Wishing that all these never happened
Wishing I could turn back time and I will never give you up

Wag Nang Ibigin Pa

2006-07-19T22:52:00.000+08:00

Tila kay bigat ng nararamdaman
Ang puso ko'y parang inaapakan
Para bang ang mundo'y sa balikat ay pasan
Ganyan nga ba kapag ang puso ay nasaktan?
Heto ako umiibig pa rin
Sa kanya, na kailanma'y di na muling magiging akin
Kay hirap nga talagang tanggapin
Na ako'y naging duwag na siya'y muling mahalin
Sa araw-araw mundo ko'y tila sumisikip
Hindi mawaglit sa isip ang nadaramang sakit
Kakayanin nga ba ng puso ko ang limutin ka?
Matuturuan nga kaya ang puso na ika'y wag nang ibigin pa?

Mistakes of a Coward

2006-07-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

[From my Friendster Blog]
[Date Written: June 23, 2006]

It's been sometime now since I've written something here. I just feel so lost knowing I've been a coward to accept the fact that I do love her so much. Even if things went to many wrong ways and paths...I did become a coward to accept that I could'nt live a day without thinking of her...could'nt sleep at night not hoping to be with with her forever. Now, I don't know where I am to go. I already did everything I could to make her feel how important she is to my life. But then, as many have said, maybe it's already too late. I know, but deep inside I regret the ways I did to hide my true feelings. Maybe indeed it is already too late...but let me just say, I loved her more than anyone I have loved before. If in many occasions I'm showing that I'm ok...deep inside I'm not. I was too afraid to accept the fact that I love her and get hurt in doing so again. But what hurts most more than what I've felt before...is to lose her.

I did LOVE you in so many ways.

I did LOVE you even if you gave me pain.

The LOVE for you never left me.

I kept it inside but was afraid to show it off.

I LOVE you and I NEED you in my life.

And if one day you never see me anymore, don't think that I left because I don't love you. I left because I couldn't bare to feel the pain I've caused myself. The pain of not being true to myself...not true to what I really feel...afraid to show you how much I do care and love you.

I'm sorry if I must go.
Just don't know what to do without you.

This I Promise

2006-03-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

I sat on the chair
Looked as far as I could
Wondering when will I see you again
When will we spend time together once more
'coz I miss being beside you
'coz I'm simply missing you
Looking forward for the time
When the two of us can go places
Longing to hold your hand with mine
Somehow hoping to make you smile
I promise to give you the love you deserve
I promise that I'll always be there for you
A promise I want to keep
A promise I can't bear to break
To love you like no one has ever had
To love you forever...this I promise

Do you know me?

2006-02-18T18:12:00.000+08:00

My Johari window:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=rueljsaunar

Sorry

2006-02-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

If I could turn back time and take back what I said, I would.
The only reason why I did that is for me to tell you the truth.
Nothing less...Nothing more.
I know what I did was foolish, and I'm sorry.

Sa Panaginip

2005-11-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

Sa tuwing pag-gising sa umaga
Ikaw ay laging naaalala
Nagdarasal na ika'y muli sanang makita
Umaasang kahit saglit ay makasama ka
Nagmamatyag sa paligid habang naglalakad
Palingon-lingon, nagbabakasakaling makasalubong ka
Sa paglubog ng araw ay ikaw pa rin
Ang laman ng isipan ko't damdamin
Hanggang sa pagtulog isa lang ang ninanais
Sana'y makita ka kahit man lang sa panaginip

Complete

2005-11-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

Cannot seem to close my eyes
'Coz it's still your face that I see
Here I am, still awake late at night
As tears fell down my cheek
Thinking of ways that I may let you know
That indeed, i've fallen for you

For two years now, I've been trying to hide
Something that i feel and been keeping inside
I've tried defining what love is
But still I have defined none
Maybe it has no definition
Nor even any explanation
Searching so I may know
If indeed, I'm in love with you so
But maybe that's just what love is
Love is what you want love to be
Something that can make you see
How a person can make your life complete

All These Are True

2005-11-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

I admire the way you smile
I admire the way you laugh
I admire the way you move
And also admire the way you walk
I admire you even when you're sad
I admire even the way you frown
I admire the way you write
And also admire the way you talk
I admire you silently
I admire you from afar
'coz I don't know how to say it
Whenever I'm right in front of you
'coz I don't have the courage
To tell you that all these are true

I'm Falling For You

2005-11-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

I wish I could see you again
I wish I could spend time with you once more
I wish I may have time to enjoy your company
I wish I'd be given a chance to show you I care
I wish I'd be close to you from now on
I wish I could ask you out for dinner
I wish I could tell you I like you
I wish I could talk to you
Sigh...so many wishes
Yet how many of these would come true?
Please tell me,
Now that I'm falling for you

What I Really Feel

2005-11-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

Here I am again
Trying to write what is in my mind
Things that I could never utter
While you are here around me
This I say through writing
And this is true...believe me

There has been so many times
I longed to be close to you
So many times
That I wanted to talk to you
Many wishes that I wished would come true
Many hopes that I get to know you
I don't know the reason
Why I can't talk when you're around
Words just seem never to be utttered at all
Things that seem only to be kept in my heart
That's why I have no idea what is best
Would it be better to tell you or just keep it a secret
I don't know how I could show you I care
I find it hard to let you know what I really feel