Let You Go

I'm sorry for all the pain
I'm sorry if I wasn't able to trust you again
If only I could have
If only I was brave enough
It would have been us still
We could have been a happy couple once more
But then, every regret comes in the end
It's one regret I'll be having all my life
A regret of all my mistakes
I wish life is much simpler but it's not
Life is full of painful experiences, that's a fact
And I hope this one's just a lesson to be learned
I now know not to be a coward
I now know I should be brave to let you go

Give You Up

Never I thought that things would turn out this way
Never did I thought that it would be this painful
That it would hurt me this much seeing you with him
That you are happy, while holding his hands
I thought I could bear the feeling of losing you
I thought I could live a day without you
I was wrong thinking I could
But there's no more turning back, I know
'Coz from the moment I lost you
Pain has never left my heart
Pain has been in every breath I take
Hoping that I'll never breathe again
Hoping for a miracle that all these would go away
Wishing that all these never happened
Wishing I could turn back time and I will never give you up

Wag Nang Ibigin Pa

Tila kay bigat ng nararamdaman
Ang puso ko'y parang inaapakan
Para bang ang mundo'y sa balikat ay pasan
Ganyan nga ba kapag ang puso ay nasaktan?
Heto ako umiibig pa rin
Sa kanya, na kailanma'y di na muling magiging akin
Kay hirap nga talagang tanggapin
Na ako'y naging duwag na siya'y muling mahalin
Sa araw-araw mundo ko'y tila sumisikip
Hindi mawaglit sa isip ang nadaramang sakit
Kakayanin nga ba ng puso ko ang limutin ka?
Matuturuan nga kaya ang puso na ika'y wag nang ibigin pa?

Mistakes of a Coward

[From my Friendster Blog]
[Date Written: June 23, 2006]

It's been sometime now since I've written something here. I just feel so lost knowing I've been a coward to accept the fact that I do love her so much. Even if things went to many wrong ways and paths...I did become a coward to accept that I could'nt live a day without thinking of her...could'nt sleep at night not hoping to be with with her forever. Now, I don't know where I am to go. I already did everything I could to make her feel how important she is to my life. But then, as many have said, maybe it's already too late. I know, but deep inside I regret the ways I did to hide my true feelings. Maybe indeed it is already too late...but let me just say, I loved her more than anyone I have loved before. If in many occasions I'm showing that I'm ok...deep inside I'm not. I was too afraid to accept the fact that I love her and get hurt in doing so again. But what hurts most more than what I've felt before...is to lose her.

I did LOVE you in so many ways.

I did LOVE you even if you gave me pain.

The LOVE for you never left me.

I kept it inside but was afraid to show it off.

I LOVE you and I NEED you in my life.

And if one day you never see me anymore, don't think that I left because I don't love you. I left because I couldn't bare to feel the pain I've caused myself. The pain of not being true to myself...not true to what I really feel...afraid to show you how much I do care and love you.

I'm sorry if I must go.
Just don't know what to do without you.